I just got back from a wonderful time renting a cottage with some of my deepest and closest friends from high school. We are all on our own spiritual paths, so it made the weekend full of wonderful and meaningful conversations, and I am so grateful for that. I had a very stress filled 2 weeks. Applying for a contract position at the outdoor education centre I work for at the TDSB, it is a very detailed process that my spirit wasn't prepared for. I am not sure if I really want the position. I do really enjoy my job, and have a lot of fun at it. I work hard there as well, but ultimately I want to be investing my time into teaching and training yoga, building my thai massage skills and working in it. I also want to begin broadening my knowledge and skills in the holistic healing realm, and get back into the arts. I am very thankful to be working the job right now , and will take it the position if the universe brings it to me, as it will give me the funds for all the things I want to do and work a 9-5 job with great ppl, outside.
As a result of getting stressed and overwhelmed with this process I have fallen ill, carrying a fever and body aches since I got up to the cottage, and now a headache and a sore throat have carried on. Coming back from my training in Guatemala, I thought I would be strong but I guess that was my first mistake. . . I thought rather then felt. I got back trapped in my mind, and lost focus and discpline that I developed during my training. I am not mad or disappointed in myself for making this mistake, and losing my grounding. I am have chosen to be on an amazing spiritual path that is going to constantly be teaching me so many lessons about myself. So everytime I fall its a great experience for me to learn about myself. I needed this past month to fall and see where I was before I left so I could fully put my work to work.
Taking the day off of work today has reminded me how much I have to look after myself, that I am the most important to person in my life. If I am not well, if I am not happy then I am not me.