Kali destroys Red Tara

Sooo yesterday I was longboarding to my yoga workshop on the goddess Kali, she stands for aggression, the animal within, change and time, the darkness and I feel randomly off it, and my long broke getting run over by a car. . . strange thing is that my long board has Red Tara under it. .. Buddhist believe him to be the aggressor avatar of Buddha who is the preserver. . . so interesting. . the workshop was an amazing, except for the fair size abrasion I have on my shoulder over my tattoo. I really believe it symbolized my acceptance of the darkness within, recognizing that I am not a perfect human being. As well that there is some amazing changes that are happening within me, and around my life. Change that I have been trying to create, but I guess that is the funny thing. . . the more you try to fix something the more it gets broken. The more you TRY to change, no more change is resisted, but when your open to it, comes when it is needed. So I guess the unexpected fall represented the joy in the unpredictable. Realizing that I am human, and can get hurt on something I enjoy and I am very confident at. That is what Kali brings, she is the aspect of ourself that reminds us we are just a part of nature.

The Kali experience last night at the workshop with Noah Maze (one of Anursura yoga's top instructors) really hit me when he said Kali wears her blood on the outside. . . as I had a red and little bit bloody shoulder. That spoke to me, in embrace the unpredicted change, where your true self always on the outside, let the control of your minds voice go. I'm such a planner. I have the outlook of , "okay this is how I'm going to enter the flow." But I learnt last night that there is greatness in that but to open yourself to allowing unpredicted action to happen and take it with joy and love. . . great growth and exploration with in can happen.

I wasn't even mad when I saw my longboard get run over and split into two pieces. My trucks and wheels are okay, so just need a new deck. I realized I could go into anger, I could let the Kali version of myself take over. . .but instead I took a deep breath, laughed at myself. . . and said well clearly have to go buy a new deck this weekend. I embraced the change, and took it to a higher place. I realized I had a lesson to learn and it's not just pay attention to the road, because I was doing that. . .the fall was so random. . . there was another boarder behind me on Harbord St. and he was like, "What happened, you just feel off your board!"

I can't wait to explore the goddess of Saraswati tonight on the full moon. .. she represents the moon.